This is my first time writing a blog, so I will insert a poem I once wrote to make this easier for me.

It seems so complex, yet so simple
Such heart wrenching moments mixed in with the silent yet beautiful ones
Encapsulating us in the vibrant duality that these are 
A second of ecstasy and an eternity of agony
Brings us to a point of introspection:
What is all this? Am I mistaken about it all?
Is this real or is that?
When both embrace us in their loving lap
The truth manifested twofold, and the lies engulfing them all
The question I have is:
How do I experience it as one?

This poem is an aspect of my experience of life; to be specific, the duality of the quality of experience of life as pleasant and unpleasant. I have been seeking things to be my way, even when I am aware of the futility of the thought. But, I want to accept the reality of things and life the way it is. I desire a desire, when my true desire longs for something different. I want to discard the unpleasant reality and embrace the pleasant one but it just does not work because it keeps popping up when I bury it. I guess it is an integral part of my shadow, according to Jungian psychology. As the pleasant and unpleasant are different, so is the truth and untruth. This is an explanation of my poem in a wannabe philosophical way but yeah, it is what I feel. Now to the simpler parts of my life….

I have a problem

I am lost. I don’t know what I am passionate about. This falls under one of those unpleasant things that I don’t like. So I started this blog to document my journey in search of that which would satiate my thirst for satisfaction. I do not have something exciting to look forward to, but using this blog, I will record my progress as I move towards something that would give me that rush of ecstasy everyone gets when they are passionate about something. Along the way, we will also peel the onion layers that encapsulate the personality, likes, dislikes, interests and disinterests of yours truly. So I will sign off here…..

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